G-L-O-R-I-A

I don’t remember what the assignment was here, but I wrote this poem about my mother.  I used to love sitting with my family, singing along as my parents played guitar.  When we got older, my brother would play guitar too, and it was a regular family jam.  I wish we still had them now!  Mom and Dad don’t play nearly as much as they used to, and I think my brother plays so much for his job, that he probably isn’t interested in a family jam anymore!

G-L-O-R-I-A

She grips the neck
Stares into space
Takes a deep breath
And places her long, slim fingers upon the frets.
She looks comfortable here.
Young.
In control.
Her fingers feel their way around the strings
And for once, 
She plays.

A fast tune it may be,
But the sound of her dripping heart is slow.
Her voice may be mild,
But her spirit screams
Yes! I’m free!”

I sit in amazement and watch her.
She’s so beautiful.
Young.
Life is all but easy for this country girl,
But she is set free by her music.
Singing at the top of her lungs now, 
Her soul is freed
All about the carpet for all to see.

Life is all but easy for her.
She cries
Daily.
She loves
Unconditionally.
And hard moment after unbearable moment
Leads up to this.
The Release.

I sit and watch until I can take it no longer – 
Until I hear a voice from inside screaming
“Let me out!”
And so I sing.

Katie Swisher (née Kermeen)
September 1999

Stevie Ray and Double Trouble

The writing assignment here was to write a poem that personified an animal.  At the time I wrote this, Steve Ray was our family cat.  He was just the best ever.  Stevie Ray loved popcorn and lettuce.  He loved to perch on the small ledge between the sink and the edge of the counter.  He loved to snuggle, and his purr was long and loud.  He loved being rubbed just in front of his ears – so much so that he had very little fur there!  We had rubbed him bald!  He would “talk” to you when you came home from work or school.  Almost as if he were saying, “Hey! How was your day?”  Stevie Ray was all gray, except for a small white spot on his chest.  He came to our family as a kitten right around my 14th birthday, and died on Christmas day in 2001.  We almost lost him just a few months after he joined our family.  Somehow he had eaten an entire ham and cheese Hot Pocket, and ended up barfing it all up on my pillow late one night.  Dad cleaned it up for me (thanks Dad!) and put Stevie in the garage in case he puked more.  We woke up the next morning, and Stevie Ray had somehow gotten his head stuck in the spokes of a bicycle.  The spokes were pinching his neck, and had cut off circulation to his brain.  He was so close to dead.  We BEGGED Mom and Dad to do something, so we rushed him to the pet emergency room.  I’m certain they had to pay about a million dollars to save this cat’s life, but save it they did.  For a few weeks after he came home, he was a little spacey – staring off into nothing, walking into walls, etc.  After a while he was right back to normal though, and I think he was even more loving with us after that.  It’s like he knew that we had rescued him from death, and snuggled and purred even more as a thank you.  

So here is the poem I wrote from Stevie Ray’s point of view…

STEVIE RAY AND DOUBLE TROUBLE

She came in flustered again today.
Probably another hard day on the job.
Probably another long day of lectures and notes.
She comes home to the messes that await her from yesterday,
And the day before,
And all she wants is to sit and forget.

Forget the day.
Forget the work.
Forget her troubles.
Forget him.
Forget that she’s lonely.
Forget that she’s afraid.
Forget that she’s wrong.

She sits and stares at the trivia show
With the day running through her mind
In fast forward
Only stopping on the bad parts, 
And going too fast through the good.
I sense her pain.
We are close.
I sense her pain.
I too want to forget.

Forget the day.
Forget the work.
Forget my troubles.
Forget the spider hiding on the wall behind her favorite picture.
Forget the scratches I made on the wall.
Forget that I pooped on the bathroom rug.

Two beings
Wanting to forget the world.
So I curl up in her lap, 
Purr, 
And we forget the day together.

Katie Swisher (née Kermeen)
September 14, 1999

Morning Glory

This poem was also inspired by Brooke’s mom.  Blue morning glories always remind me of Jo.  Looking back on this poem now, I see that it probably needs a lot of work.  There are a few places where it almost seems like I’m telling an inside story of some kind.  I’m sorry for that.  It resonated with me then!  I’m going to leave it as is though – in an effort to let this be what it is: a poem from my past. 

MORNING GLORY

Every time I pass the vine, I think of you.
I think of you on the balcony basking in the light of the rising sun.
Waves crash in our ears, and we talk about nothing and everything all at once. 
I try not to think of the night you left. 
You clung desperately to the life that loved you.
The life that treated you so well.
The life that gave you the beautiful family you left behind.
I remember watching him hold your hand and whisper loving words into your ear.
I remember you reaching out to touch his face, just before you fell into sleep.
I wondered then why the good are always the ones to die young.
Or maybe, the bad die young too, but maybe we just don’t care enough to notice.
So I said goodbye, unwillingly.
Glad to see your pain gone, cried at the pain we had yet to endure.
I huge her a lot. 
Let her know I love her,
And we remember you together.
We return to the balcony, eat the bacon and think back to when you were here.
The sun shines on her face just as it did on yours, and I marvel at the resemblance.
The flowers returned today, in all their glory, in spite of us thinking they were gone. 
Hello to you too, my friend.

Katie Swisher (née Kermeen)
October 5, 1999