>10 Weeks

>Here we are at 10 weeks.  I know I just posted the 9 weeks post on Saturday, but I was late on that one.  Sorry!  This one is a little more timely…

1. How am I feeling this week?
10 weeks has me feeling not as nauseous or tired, but a little more cranky.  Okay, maybe I’m a lot more cranky.  I can’t tell if it’s a hormonal thing or a “I’M REALLYd TIRED OF COLD, WHITE, WINTER! BRING ON SPRING BEFORE I SNAP!” thing.  I feel like my belly is protruding a little bit, although not really much more than last week.  I continue to treasure the time spent either wearing my yoga pants or not wearing pants at all…  

2. What is new this week?

New this week is ACNE. 😦  I haven’t had a horrible break-out yet, but I have a few zits that have popped up suddenly in the last couple days.  I’m thinking I might have to try paying more attention to washing my face twice a day and moisturizing well and all that.  If my Grandma Alice ever found out how poorly I care for my skin, she would surely have my hide.  Please just keep it our little secret, mkay?  Another new thing this week is that I bought a belly band! My friend Aimee strongly suggested one, and I figured I’d give it a try to help alleviate some of the issues I’ve been having with my pants.  I haven’t tried it for a full day yet, but will probably do so soon.  It seems like it will work pretty well.  I tried it on tonight, and I think it will be good.  It’s got to be better than investing tons of money in new pants.
3. What am I excited about this week?

I seem to really be getting excited about the fact that this pregnancy could work out.  That we might actually be bringing a baby into our home in a matter of months!  We decided over 5 years ago that we wanted to starting having children.  For many years we couldn’t even get pregnant.  When we were finally able to get pregnant, we lost the pregnancies in miscarriage twice.  So far this reproductive process has been nothing but disappointment for us.  Here we are, pregnant for a third time, and we have had zero complications and have gotten to 10 weeks.  Could it be that this might actually end well for us?  It’s hard to wrap my mind around it after so much heartache.  It seems a little backwards, doesn’t it?  Most pregnant mommies can’t imagine losing that little one growing in their bodies.  I can’t seem to imagine mine growing to full term.  I have been having flashes of a daydreaming though – more lately than even a couple weeks ago – that we have a nursery in our home with well-loved toys and soft blankets and a cooing baby  warming our arms.  I’m hoping the farther along we get in this pregnancy that these fantasies seem more like a reality that we’re destined for rather than a dream.   
4. What am I nervous about this week?
Compared to most of the other anxieties I have been having lately, I know that this next one is rather silly.  It has been bothering me all the same lately though.  We have a dog named Pork Chop.  He’s a very loving dog, and fun to play with.  BUT – Pork Chop LOVES stuffed animals.  Most dog love tennis balls or chewies or whatever.  He LOVES stuffed animals.  He thinks they all belong to him.  He has tried on numerous occasions to steal them from small children who happen to bring them in our home.  This concerns me greatly.  I know he will steal baby toys, and will probably destroy them.  It’s really bothering me lately!


Also, I spent some time yesterday at my dear friend Jaime’s baby shower.  I sat at a table with some girlfriends (and new friends!) chatting about babies and childbirth and all that.  Oy frickin vey.  The childbirth stories the mommies at that table shared were a little too realistic. *gulp*  I’m not stupid when it comes to these things.  My sister and I are very close, and she has had two children and shared many details with me.  I have read books and talked with other moms too.  BUT – I think some of my memory of those conversations must have disappeared when I got pregnant.  I got a little freaked out yesterday talking with all those gals!  Poor Jaime – she’s going to face it a lot sooner than I am!  I’m sure I’ll get the dirt from her too… Oh my.

5. What am I craving or having aversions to this week?
Not really craving much or being turned off by much at the moment.  I still experience some frequent extreme hunger, but I can’t seem to figure out what I want!  It’s really frustrating, and it makes those cranky feelings mentioned in the first question really come out.  Cravings would be welcome at this point.  At least I would be able to figure out what it is that I want when it’s time to eat!


There we are – 10 weeks and counting.   I’m 25% of the way through.  According to Baby Center, the baby is now a full-fledged FETUS, and his/her major parts are all in place and set to grow rapidly in the next few months.  We’re still praying for a healthy pregnancy, although at this point all signs seem to be good.  We will be visiting the doctor a week from today, and he hopes to hear the baby’s heartbeat in the office that day.  I’m not sure what we’ll do if he is unable to hear it.  Hopefully he’ll send us over to the hospital for an ultrasound right then, because I don’t want to live with the anxiety if we can’t hear that baby.  That’s my fervent prayer this week.  Let’s hear that strong heartbeat next week!

>9 Weeks

>Technically, tomorrow I’m rolling over to 10 weeks, so I’m a little late posting this.  Sorry!  I haven’t had much time at my computer this week (other than work – which is CRAZY right now).  Here we go!


1. How am I feeling this week?
At 9 weeks, I am starting to feel the nausea and exhaustion subside just a little bit.  Still fairly tired and unmotivated most of the time, but I have had spurts of productivity this week!  Not sure that the state of my house reflects that very well, but I’m trying.  I’m feeling fatter this week.  I feel like my belly is starting to stick out a bit more, but I guess I could just be bloated or something.  Wearing regular pants is really starting to be a chore.  I DREAD having to button those things!  Don’t ask me to lift my shirt – I’m probably unbuttoned when you see me!

2. What is new this week?

New this week…Well – I am sleeping a bit better this week.  I spend an ungodly amount of money on a Boppy total body pillow.  It helps to have a pillow between my knees, and regular pillows just kept slipping off the bed in the middle of the night.  I think it has helped, although I’m not sure Buster likes it too much.  He’s trying to find new ways to snuggle when we sleep, and so far he hasn’t found a spot that he’s happy with.  Matt says he doesn’t mind the monster pillow, but maybe he’s just being nice!

3. What am I excited about this week?

Names! We’ve been talking names a lot.  We’ve pretty much settled on a boys name, but we’re still thinking about one for a girl.  We can’t seem to totally agree on that!  I’m sure we’ll let you know what names we choose at some point.  Just not today!  We had names picked out when we were pregnant in 2009, so it seemed obvious to just use those names.  The sad thing is that I feel like those names were for that baby.  When I say them now, I just don’t feel like they fit anymore.  I know that’s weird.  It’s hard to name a baby that we’re still not sure will ever be born, but I imagine that most parents start thinking of names early on.  Am I right about that???  

4. What am I nervous about this week?
I think I’ll be anxious about a possible miscarriage for a long time.  You just never know.  Things are so promising right now because I’m feeling lots of symptoms of a healthy pregnancy (nausea, exhaustion, back pain, breast pain, weight gain, etc.), AND I haven’t had any spotting or bleeding like I had in both of the other pregnancies.  I just know that anything can happen though, and we really don’t know what’s going on in my body right now.  We’re trusting that our little baby is growing and thriving, but the “what-ifs” never really go away.  


Also, I’m kind of nervous about how our life is going to change with a baby in the house.  This is definitely something we want, but the changes are going to be scary all the same!  We have been married 8.5 years, and have become comfortable in our “just us” life.  Suddenly we’ll have to go to a fairly regimented schedule as far as bedtimes,  meals, cleaning, etc. goes.  We seem to be exactly opposite of that right now!  We go to bed whenever, get up whenever (unless we have work), eat when we feel hungry (could be 6:00, could be 9:00!), etc.  I’m not the best housekeeper either, so thinking of how I’m going to have to improve myself that way is daunting too.  We will do what is best for our new family, but it’s going to be a huge shift around here.  


One more thing I’m nervous about is my health.  I’m really overweight, and have fears about the complications that may (probably will) bring to the table.  In my head I know I need to be eating better and getting some exercise, but right now I can hardly stay awake through the work day!  My nausea and cravings have me wanting to eat things like popcorn and sprite and I really don’t have much interest in salads right now.  I’m hoping this doesn’t last long.  I did get on the treadmill yesterday morning for just a little bit.  I cut it short though because some serious hunger pains took over.  Next time I’ll remember to eat breakfast before I try to do that again!  


5. What am I craving or having aversions to this week?
This is a question my friend Courtney suggested I add to my weekly posts, and I quickly agreed!  From the beginning of the pregnancy until now I have been craving hot dogs and corn dogs.  It’s so weird, I know.  I’m a foodie for crying out loud!  These are horrible things to eat!  I can’t help it though.  They are SO GOOD.  I’m starting to crave cherry slushies (also, really not good for me).  They feel so good on my upset tummy!  Pizza is almost always a good idea for me, but that’s true even when I’m not pregnant.  And I just discovered something that’s becoming a craving: Chip’ins by Popcorn, Indiana.  They’re popcorn chips, and they’re AWESOME.  Only three ingredients: popcorn, sunflower oil and sea salt.  This makes me so happy!  Plus, they are naturally low in fat (only 2.5 grams per serving).  They seem to fulfill the cravings I’ve been having for salty things without making me feel like I’ve eaten anything really heavy.  You can get them at Walgreens, Walmart and Whole Foods I hear, although I have only been to Walgreens for them.  Go buy them.  Make them the most popular item in the store, so more places will carry them!  


Aversions?  I have really NOT wanted salad lately.  Something about the lettuce or whatever – I don’t know.  I just sound AWFUL right now.  So weird too, because I usually LOVE salad.  Also, steak hasn’t sounded all that great, or any big cuts of meat for that matter.  I like ground beef or shredded chicken, but to think about eating a whole steak or whole chicken breast just makes me a little blah.  My appetite really seems to change by the minute though, so tomorrow I may be wanting steak for every meal!  


So that’s that. Me at 9 weeks.  I’ll be putting up a 10 week post in the next couple days.  Thanks for praying for us!!!

>8 Weeks

>Well, well, well…

I’m guessing that most of you know by now, but I’m pregnant again! I figured I should probably do some sort of pregnancy journal, and it seems like a blog I already have set up would be just the place to do it. It is my intention to blog about the pregnancy at least once a week, and each week I plan to answer some basic questions bout the pregnancy. Here we go!

1. How am I feeling this week?
At 8 weeks, I am definitely feeling pregnant. I have been exhausted lately, and definitely feeling nauseous quite a bit. I have yet to actually get sick, but I feel multiple times each day that I might just need to hurl! I have been sleeping with a big bowl next to my bed just in case. Around Christmas I was suffering from heartburn quite often, but I have tried to change my diet a bit to keep that from happening. It seems to be working so far. Today is my first day back at work, and I’m worried I won’t be able to keep up with my commute and work schedule. I only work three days each week, but a 55 mile commute means I still spend a lot of time on the road.

2. What is new this week?

I think I may need to start looking for maternity clothes soon! I’m not really happy about this, but I guess it means little Beanie is getting bigger and making room for his stay. Thankfully I have stretchy jeans and stretchy trousers, so maybe I can put the maternity pants off for a while longer. I also will probably need to start looking at new bras. My girls are HURTING and definitely feel like they’re starting to get bigger. (Oy vey…)

3. What am I excited about this week?

I seem to be getting excited about little things like bedding and decor for the nursery, and gear like strollers and playpens. I have plenty of time to figure out what we’re going to need, but I can’t stop looking at them online! I’m taking this as a sign that my psyche is getting more optimistic about what lies in this womb-o-mine.

4. What am I nervous about this week?
I’m still really anxious about the possibility of losing this pregnancy. To be honest, things look really great. Dr. A. said that the ultrasound and lab work couldn’t look better. I haven’t had any spotting whatsoever. Matt reminds me constantly that until we see signs that give cause for worry (spotting, cramping, etc.), then we shouldn’t worry! Yes dear. I hear you – just make sure I keep taking deep, calming breaths.

Another thing I’m worried about is the delivery. I know – it’s a long way off! But I worry that my arterial dissection that I had in May will prohibit me from having a vaginal delivery. I have always wanted a delivery with no pain medications too, but I have a feeling that may not happen. Whatever we need to do to get the baby here safely is obviously okay with me, but I’m just starting to wonder how the dissection is going to affect this moment in my life.

That’s that – Is there a weekly question that seems I have obviously overlooked? I just came up with them on my own – no research or anything. If you can think of something that might be a nice weekly question, just leave it in the comments below. BabyCenter.com suggests we should start taking belly pictures (actually, they suggested it for last week). I’m probably going to do them, but just need to figure out where to do them and what to wear and all of that. The fact that I am already very overweight will most definitely affect the way I show and all of that. You may not be able to tell for quite a while still. I’m not sure…anyone have experience here on being an overweight pregnant lady?

Anyone have thoughts about the sex of the baby? We’ll find out when it’s time (another 12 weeks or so), but it’s fun to speculate until then. Both of our younger nieces think Beanie Boo is a boy, and Matt and I tend to agree. Beanie’s heart rate was 136 when we had our ultrasound a couple weeks ago, and people (whoever “people” are) say that boys will typically be 140 or below and girls will be 140 and above. Something I notice the other day is that my feet and legs have not swollen at all like they did with the other pregnancies. I can’t help but remember that when my sister was pregnant with Kamryn, she was SO swollen, and with Harrison she didn’t swell much at all. Hmmmm…just something to think about. My family typically does a GIRL – GIRL – BOY cycle, but technically this is our third pregnancy. I don’t know – we’ll be happy with anything. At this point though, I kinda hope it’s a boy. We have settled on a fantastic name (IMO) for a boy, and are still bouncing around on one for a girl. Boy or girl though – I don’t care. Just give me a healthy, full-term baby.

Hope you all have a great new year! Can’t believe we’re already in 2011…